Quitting teaching Sunday School was the best choice ever!

So...a few years ago my mother told me that there was an opening for a preschool teacher at the church I grew up in.  I applied and was accepted.  It took a while to develop relationships with the kids-but when they were solidified the structure looked like this: We all wanted to learn about God-and I was the tallest learner.  Little people can make good friends.  They see the world in a purer way and they are still horrified (not ambivalent) about things they should be horrified by.  They learned to trust me to be fair and I learned to trust them to cooperate with the structure because I loved them and they loved me.  (This somehow does not work in a home setting..I've tried with my own).  We had fun-learned about Jesus and I will forever treasure those two years.




During the time I was teaching though, I wasn't being taught.  I was needing outside inspiration and was trying to come up with that myself.  At the end I chose to let the position go because I wasn't passionate about knowing the Lord for myself and therefore could not teach the children that.  They deserved better.  Even though I knew the stories and loved each child...I couldn't give them what they truly needed from me. 

I started looking for a church.  I went to one nearby and everyone was so friendly-they all came up to introduce themselves to me after service. It was like a wedding reception line.  Someone even drove me home because it would be a long walk for me.  At the end of service they offered prayers for the many families in their church who were sick.  I was laid up for the next week feeling miserable. 

Eventually I walked into a church where I developed inspiration.  They taught things that I knew...but desperately needed to be reminded of.  As soon as I walked into the building I knew I was in the right place though.  I knew the songs and it felt peaceful.  Someone told me once, "You have to go where you have peace."  It was home.  I feel like I'm coming alive again and after each sermon I am more aware of what God is speaking to my heart.